And here we are. Back at the beginning. I guess this is where my story has brought us to. After New York it was pretty simple, I applied for a direct transfer from my course and looked forward to studying what I truly love- English. I spent the rest of that Summer unemployed, slowly going out of my mind, but in writing this, finding some sort of clarity in it all. Of course, those months I spent feeling like a failure, I couldn’t find a job, I hadn’t succeeded in my course and the doubts of if moving was the right choice never ceased to swirl around my head. But it wouldn’t last forever, and it was about to end, September was fast approaching.
So here I am, back at the beginning, not quite exactly at where I started, but not where I want to be either, a little worse but a little better. But that’s all it is, these growing pains. That’s all it’s ever going to be. That’s what makes up all our ordinarily extraordinary lives. Mine and yours, they never stop, these growing pains will never to cease to exist, and they are terrible and terrifying and fantastic and scary, and they give us the reason to keep battling on. Yes, it is hard, it will always be hard, but the best part is, I can help yours, with mine. And then, I got ready to start all over again.